It's been a long while since I've posted a blog. I'd like to say that my absence was wholly justified in terms of my own writing goals, but it's not. I had promised myself a regimented amount of blogging to keep sharpening the iron so to speak and I failed pretty badly.
However, with that said, I have done quite a bit since my last blog. I actually finished my book last summer! Which as it stood was the reason I was justifying my lack of blogging. I churched it up, edited, re-edited and started submitting to literary agents. Lots of responses but no bites. THEN, we found out we were going to have another baby!
Book took a back seat.
In March my beautiful wife had a little handsome smiley baby boy. He's worthy of another entire blog--- which shall come sooner than later. But I digress. After the baby came, we did what anyone does when their life is in a huge state of transition--- we bought a new house!
We upgraded in size, neighborhood and schools so it was a win in so many ways. Now we are just finishing up getting the house all put together. Most everything is where it will go and we just need to hang the art and we're pretty much set. But that feeling of transition has always been the block to my writing motivation. I understand the commitment it takes to do the kind of writing I'd like to be doing and I've always found a way to sabotage my plans.
Finishing the book was a huge accomplishment for myself. I busted my ass, writing hours a day after everyone was asleep and sneaking off to a Starbucks as often as I could to lose myself in some coffee, music and some science fiction. But that takes an enormous amount of time and energy and with a new baby and a new house on the horizon, neither were very available to me. One thing after another always gave me a reason to put my writing at the back of the line. Well here is where my epiphany happened.
Our goal was a family of four (furry family excluded) [check], we knew we'd eventually need to find an upgrade for a home [check], we kept our first home as a rental so we're 'well invested' [check] and up until about 3 years ago we were in dire need of upgrading our vehicles to match our new family oriented lifestyles [check]... Besides the typical college funds and vacations, we really have accomplished some of our key goals as a family. That's fucking exciting.
The epiphany is that now that we have our roots where we anticipate keeping them for decades to come, I can honestly say I've run out of reasons to wait any longer in diving in as deep as I want to go. I believe I'm about to resurrect the podcast, I anticipate getting back on top of my blog and as god as my witness, I will sell that damn book.
The thing is, among that epiphany I realized a major mis-step from someone in my position. Writing should've been a part of those long-term goals all along. Instead of letting it fall to the back of the line, I should've been clearing space for it. I've made this declaration before but I will be re-committing to my writing because that's where I believe I'm meant to make a mark (outside of my own family that is). I believe I have a huge advantage in that when people have the hunger 'for more' as they get older, they often need to go searching just to figure out what that 'more' is... I have identified my more and the amount I have access to is unquantifiable. That's exciting.
I have no clue how many of you read these but all the comments help keep me engaged. I promise to make the future blogs a little more entertaining. I just needed to get something on the computer.
